People tend to follow what the majority say. To go with the flow, because they think that it is only right. But how right is right?
If 98% of the world's population tell you to do A, will you do it just because you think that it is only right since everyone is saying the same thing? And even if you think its right, do you really have to do it if it wasnt something you wanna do?
Sounds confusing? Let me elaborate.
For example, if people around tell you that 4Bia is a really good movie that scares the shit out of you, and you should really watch it. It doesnt necessary mean that you need to agree its a good movie. Watch it yourself and make your own judgement, why follow what other people say, or think? I watched it, and i think it sucks, pure boredom and not at all scary. Does that mean im wrong?
Did i confuse you even more? How about another example.
If you're in a relationship that is going no where and everyone tells you to end it. They say the best solution is to end it earlier than to drag on and feel worst. Everyone is saying the same thing, but its something you dont wanna do. Do you really have to do what everyone is telling you? Or do what you feel like doing even if its not totally right? It is your relationship, not theirs. You can listen to what they have to say, but you dont have to action if that is not what you wanna. How wrong is that? What everyone tell you, might not exactly be the best option! The best option is your own decision and opinion, something that wont make you think twice.
I am no longer gonna get psycho-ed by what everyone say. What everyone say might not be right, cos i only believe in what i say or what i wanna do - even if its a mistake. It is my life, i do what i want, not what everyone else wants.
And i hope, you will too.
I thought my tear duct dried up 4 years ago. Am quite surprised that i could still tear so much these couple of days. I impressed myself again!
My eyes are swollen.
and I love my boyfriend.
I did my nails at Yawen's and its super bling bling. Love it though my typing speed and accuracy is now reduced by half and im taking a longer time to wash my hair and i cannot open can drinks as well as my storeroom door.
and I love my boyfriend a lot.
Im having a bad breakout and i am so annoyed with my face condition right now.
and I love my boyfriend very much.
I am feeling sleepy but i cant sleep. I hate sleepless nights.
and I love my boyfriend more than i ever loved anyone else.
I have many questions with no answers.
Have i already mentioned that i love my boyfriend ?
And at the end of the story, there's always a but.
But, but look on the bright side, everything's gonna be fine...
I am so tired...so tired...
I used to think that its uber boring to spend my weekends like how i used to. Meeting the same old clique at late night, catch a movie, go for supper, talk for a bit and then head home. Now that we dont do that anymore, i realised that it wasnt a bore at all, cos nothing can get more boring than how i spend my weekends right now.
I miss the old times, but everything has changed and its really pretty sad how fragile our friendship could be. We've been through so much, so many years of our life together but it cant be compared to the new friends 'you've' made.
There's something which i really feel like doing right now, but i cant. There's also something which i should not do, but i am.
I used to love Vonda Shepard's Baby dont your break my heart slow and i could never agree more to how true the chorus is.
I'd rather you be mean, than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth, and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take the blow, at least then i will know
But baby dont you break my heart slow
Now? I totally disagree. Totally.
I'd rather you lie that you
I need to pop my anti-emo pills and jump straight to bed.
I had a good long conversation with R that night and amazingly he always know what to say to wake me up from my silly moments and spank me back to life.
Every word he said, lingered in my mind, so vividly and constantly reminding me, brainwashing me and i try to fight back by escaping and got myself all caught up and confused.
Im starting to feel distant from my self. I am starting to feel suspicious of me. I dont really know myself anymore. Is this me? I always thought i know myself, but was i thought who i am really who i am? Am i evolving into the real me or have i been changing?
Tell me. All the hidden facts about me, starting to break free..not the kinda girl i thought i would be, not the kinda person i wanna be.
I dont wanna be me.
Today is probably one of the best moments. Not as happy as how my Sunday was spent of course, but still, a very happy day worthed to mention about.
I lost a great friend 2 years ago due to my confessions. And today, i got him back and you cannot imagine how elated i am right now because i really never thought this day would come.
"would u like to hang out with me again?" --this is the best thing ever heard today.
Boy am i glad. Miracles do happen, dont they?
And im going to meet my long lost friend right now!!
Now i see some hope on another perspective, is that good or bad?
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